Below are the 16 most recent journal entries recorded in MaXx's LiveJournal:

Monday, November 28th, 2005
5:08 am	Give it to me baybee! Uhh huh! Uh huh! Yooo! What is up people! Lets see... How neglectful have I been with liveJ. My b! I have prally sat down at 3 different computers and start my entree and then ADD out and completelly forget about it. Well this time I am actually gonna complete it! So much has happend since my last entree! I got all my stuff out of New Orleans, and already been back from my FIRST visit to LA! Dude. I'm flaberghasted. I mean, its the total OPPOSITE feeling I had just 2 months b4. I got to meet celebrities, run the hollywood star road on the way to a comedy premeir. WHICH WAS TOTALLY FUCKING HALLARIOUS! My friend Michael who is totally rad. AWESOME guy. And It can happen yall! I met him amongst others who actually didnt turn out to be some really scary middle aged fat guy with a recieding hair line that has smelly draws on with a couple or 3 teeth missin!Okay and wha? So... I got to go to Hustler Hollywood. I got to see what it was about. What it looked like. What the overall feel of the store was...and bay-bay. Lemme tell ya somthin... A.w.e.s.o.m.e.! AH! The people that I would immidiately strike convo with in New Orleans that was from near and around Hustler in LA would tell me that the one I was werking at was nicer. That New Orleans was totally cooler. So i had in my head had this store that I was walking into was not as cool as what I'm seeing in front of my 2 baby blues on Sunset Blvd. yo! WHAT!?!? Are you kidding me?? So, I went in, and did what my good frind and manager ANN said to do and asked for the store manager Chris. I got to talk to him, let him know what I was comming from in New Orleans. Let him know that I can start werk ASAP just leme know! I'm told that it wont be a problem. But I've learned n life that no expectaions should be x-pected. foe real. Everysingle time I get my hopes up I'm let down. And Im not gettin my hopes up. What am I saying? Damn skippy I'm gonna get that job! I loved that job! I mean, the feeling I got when I walked in their to werk, was just so... i dunno, special. And now, I look back on my Hustler dayz in New Orleans, and I can see all the staffs smiling, bright and individualed self. and thier all so close, but so far away. We all had a corny cheezy bond. Just like my relationships that I made in Oz. They are my gay family. Just like Tommy E. The general manager of Oz. We talk on the phone on a regular basis. I really look to him as my dad. My gay dad. I miss both my jobs so damn much I cant stand it. It still boggals my mind to just read my livej pre and then post katrina. How my world has been shaken. How my world has been rocked. And that's just it. ROCK. I can't wait till Dec 5th and have that fuckin HUGE road trip yo! Like 2 and a half dayz i think? Shy-zah! Its all good. I was in the car for 14 and a half hours just goin to hattiesburg ms, from new orleans during the evacuation of IVAN last year. BY MYSELF WITH A DEAD PHONE mind you! I was fit to be tied lemme tell ya. Like a fuckin myme in a sound booth. ......what did i just say? ::nods head:: So at this present time I am at beloved Johnny Eubank's(light guy at Oz) new krib in Memphis, TN. And it is soo cute! I did some netwerking and got Johnnie the new light guy position at Backstreet in M-town ya heard. And He's doin really well. He misses New Orleans so much he cant stand it... and I'm right there with him. I mean fa real. Damn that Jafar. Be jerkin my magic carpet out from undah me like dat. Shit! Freakin loser. Yep. My last trip here to see my baby. I love Brandon so much. Such a special kidd he is. 2 special kiddz 2getha. To bad not 4eva. Just not 4 now. He has been in Maxx's lil picture for a while huh? Just about 2 years. Sheesh! And I still feel the same about him since the first time we went on a date. hehehehe. And all this time I thought libras were self indulged, egotistical, pompus shmucks! Nope, just a warm hearted, inner peaced, mulitalented golden scale. (you know... cuz he's a libra.) But I cant leave out the OCD part. I thought I had OCD bad. Holmes, lemme tell ya. ::And thas all I'm sayin!! lol!!! Yeah, there is a layover from when I'm leaving to go back to LA and now. Because Ive pushed my day to go back from The 25th of Nov to the 5th of DEC because...::clears throat:: my dear Kenny who I have not talked to since kuntrina calls me a couple of weeks ago. And we had talked about alot my plans of moving to the west coast. And how I was doin it. We all the while Kenny told me he was goin with me. And we had it planned! But the disaster struck in a big way and are connection was lost. I got to hang out with him last week because we finally connected. And his feelings of LA were just as vivid as if we were talkn about it the otha day. Which is totally cool!!!!!!!!!! SO, instead of me not knowing anyone there... I will have a b.f. to take along for the awesome one hellavah ride! YAY!!!! So, after thanxxgivin I just couldnt take anymore family. They like to hint around that LA is a bad choice. And I should stay there and conform to everyone else and grow old then eventually die in that town. And leme tell you one thing. I have NOT gotten a job. Why? Because my mama kept tellin me to. Tellin me to. Tellin me to. And I thought. hmmmm... Now that pinochio doesnt have his strings attached anymore, he needs to get a job, back in SHATtiesburg and reattatch my strings. Lemme tell ya. I aint. And I tolder... Mama, it aint happeinin. You dont want me to leave, so you tell me to get a job. She says... ERIK... I just dont want you to spend all your F.e.m.a. money. WHICH I HAVE NOT! And I dont have any strings. This is a REAL boy ya hear me. No puppet! And I couldnt stay in that god forsaken town much longer. grrrrrrr.... So I evacuated once again to Memphis. My safe haven I suppose. Thats good to know I can hold dear to me. Cuz This is deffinately where I will be if I dont like LA. But I dont think that will happen. Brandon will just have to fly to LA and be with me there. hehehe. But anways... I would say I will holla back b4 I leave but dont start me ta' lyin! It was good to finally get that long awaited journal entree duuuuuun. I WILL however be back soon. <3ya! dont do nuthin i wouldnt do. and i ya do... ya bitches bettah name it afta me! Keep ya head up yall...peace out! //\\//\\d~ (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 1st, 2005
1:37 am	Peter, Paul and Marry couldn't have said it better...::tear:: Wow. Its here. I'm befuddled, and flaberghasted all in the same freakn time! Is that so? I dont know. Its like... packing my bags a lil while ago and just thinking... Holy Crap. Is this right. Is this the right thing to do. Is this path the right one to take. I know that I have always wanted to be on the west coast... And I dont wanna be the "woulda, shoulda, coulda guy". You live once. And with God on myside... God Speed. HAHAHAHA >:-S I arrive in La Wed. the 2nd. Get there bout' 1:30pm. And Audie is taking to to the famous "o.c." and Im gonna see what the big stir is about. hehehe. I love Laguna Beach. That show fuckin roxx! And then, head on ova to the City of Angels and go to HUSTLER HOLLYWOOD! AND HOPEFULLY THE ORRIGANL PLAN I HAD WILL WERK. but as ive noticed in life, it never turns out the way i depict. but ya know what cheezballz are sometime stale when you go to eat one. And yes, you spit the cheezball out and then take a swig of mama's sweet tea and fuckin FAH- GET ABOUT IT. lol. I aint right. And don't claim to be! So, I'm at my mamas right now. Its been a really good visit home. I got to kinda see the life that i had b4 i moved out when i graduated. I needed this time. Just like I needed Brandon, and that Memphis time. All of this makes me stronger as a person. And with that... I can learn. And Learning is the number one thing in life that helps you become a better person. You can repeat and repeat and repeat till your blue in tha face... its only then till you sit yourself aside and say... look, self... You gotta learn from this. That way you dont get caught with your pants down midway across your thy in fron of the mullberry bush. ::Clears throat.:: And my appologies for just typing that... I dont know what that was about. And what is this with I cant drive to Cali in a day? lol. Damn. I have to fly? Holy smokes! I hate flying. I have a legitimate excuse tho! My p.o.s. dad fell from the sky when i was in 4th grade due to a hellicopter malfunction. the bastard didnt die. hows that happen? ANYWAY...... Its been a hot minute since my last entree. Like always. BUT i still love you livej. This is like buttah! Like buttah I tell ya! What? I dunno..ya know? So, keep your fingers crossed for me... but more than that... if you pray... ::Q the piano and choir!:: SAY A LITTLE PRAYER FOR ME...... FOREVA FOREVER ....and CUT. Great job you guys. We really pulled that one out of our ass that time. SWEET! maymyagelsbewithyou4ever... I'll be back with my new chapter of... wEsTcOaSt, here i come. peaceout //\\//\\doubt (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 8th, 2005
8:15 am	Butterflies, so many butterflies... Yo J. Whad up. Jeez Louise, man. Butterflies, so many butterflies in my stomach. The time is here again. Where I have to leave "m" town, and I have to leave Brandon. BUT- it's not time for me to move away yet. To the west coast at least, however I do leave tomorrow morning on a train. On a train to nowhere. HAHA. Just kiddn, not really but anyway... To Greenwood, Mississippi. With my best buddy Adam. And from there, drive to "h"burg. (our hometown) Stay the night at my mama's. And then from there, the trip to the past. My life that is no more in the great city of orleans. Where the sound of Jazz music played and lil black kids tapped dance for money. Horses trotting by and the lovely distictive smell of shit billowed threw the air. Yep... those dayz. Come and gone so fast. And out of no where man. Out of no where. One night partying with the crew of Hustler Hollywood in a suite with a pornstar, and then the next night...ecacuation and pandomoneom. I'm damaged from this. Shit, I'm damaged before this... but this. This is just so fuckin...Dude I cant even type it. And i'm one for capturing my thoughts better in front of me... and this even baggals my mind. My friends, its like mother nature had them all in her hand and just threw them into the united states. Just to fall. And pray on your feet. For me... I am super blessd. I have something to go back to the swamps for. Everything in my old life. Thank God. And ya know, speaking of God. Its crazy this happend on the weekend before the "parties of sin" some call it. (Bible thumpers). Southern Decadance... Did God have his wrath on the city? No mam. He sure didn't. And if that aweful disaster was his rage against homosexuals, then Mr. Bible thumper...you can walk alone into that gate of gold...cuz I aint goin. Yall, don't belive that bull. Our God would never do that because of someones sexual orientation. Its interesting to think about...and I take it rather offensively. So, the vains start to poke out of my neck when I do talk about it. Simply because its all ignorance. And Ignorance and the mix of technology will be the downfall to our human existance. I do want to clarify something before I wrap this up and start packing my bags... I will be met in Heaven with God, Jesus and My kidd Brother Shane. They will all be there, to tell me that I lived a happy, and loving life. To myself, and also amongst my brothers and sisters. How dare someone tell me where I'm going and why. You are just a bitter person. Why? I dont care. But its people like that, that distract us from where we want to go in life... and most importantly, Why. We live in a sad world. And I've noticed, the little lights that shine in our nation have faded super dim. Everyone's life should be blessd with one little light that shines. Some people might not even realize that they have one... but when you think about it, you really do. And that light is burning bright. Brighter and brighter with every helpful, loving thing we do to one another. Cuz c'mon, face it yall. It really is the end dayz. Own up to it. If it aint God comming back, its man destroying man... and thats sad. Sad but true. So just be strong. Head high, cheex higher. And make it. Why? To make your mama proud of you. So she can rest her head at night and know that her baby is safe. And can sleep with no worries or sorrows about what he should have done, or what he could have done. To be blessd with whats in your life. And what you want in the future. The world is at our feet. The door is open. The door is finally open! Walk thru. Walk thru. and can i get an Amen. I'll be back, for the moments of my re-visit to Broadway, in New Orleans. peace out //\\//\\d~ (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 5th, 2005
2:22 pm	A city of sadness.... Its time again to take that trip again. That trip that use to be so much fun. So Awesome, and scream to the top of our lungs when we passed the "Adult Video" Store on the side of the interstate... A trip that was full of 420, and full of smiles and laughter. With good music to add! The trip to New Orleans, La. Well the last trip I've had to my homeland was oh about 2 weeks after Kuntrina. So I'd say around Sept.17th. It started with me goin back on a train to Hammond, LA. Dan my friend came and got me in a U-haul... and off we went on the Causeway to New Orleans. It really started to hit me, when from a distance you could see what use to be completely white, and just a sight of the entry of New Orleans. -The Superdome. Good grief. And the big buildings greeting you when you get off the causeway. The ones that look like gigantic mirrors. Yeah, looks like a bomb went off inside. And this was just Jefferson Parish. Not even Orleans parish. I had no idea what awaited me. No clue. Our first stop was our friend Ann's house. She lived right off Magazine St. Which might I add, was my favorite street in New Orleans. The whole street, all the way down it was boarded up. With huge oak trees every where. Some buildings with trees in them. Finally we got to Anns. We tried to open the gate... but that was impossible. A gigantic tree was lodged in the gate. So... me being a stump jumper from Mississippi, I climbed that bitch! Well, Dan and I continued our journey back up St. Charles, which was my other favorite st. in New Orleans. You know... Where the Real World Mansion is? Thats the st. I live on. And as we drive up, all the military guys surrounded us. = ( I started to get scared. We were prally stopped at least 5 times threw out our time at my house gathering everything up. (which im proud to say wasn't touched!) My car outside sustained no damage either! How bout that? My Angels were with me... I didnt really take anything at all. Nothing except what a REALLY needed. Like more clothes. toiletries, Suitcases etc... It's all in my kitchen ready to be picked up. Thats gonna be another sad day. The day I actually walk into my old life... and take everything away... and start a new one. I just hope RITA didnt fuck anything up yo. I'm so sick of these stupid ass storms. And watch... it will be my luck... that as soon, AS SOON as i get to L.A., I'll step off the plane into the ocean cuz L.A. fell into it about 5 minutes before. I'm goin back to New Orleans on Monday. So, I'll be in touch livej! //\\//\\d~ (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 2nd, 2005
7:54 am	bah bah black sheep... Yo livej. how goes it? well... super tired today. AND hungover. foe real. HUNG-OH-VAH! But its the price you pay for an awesome night. Its not my scene. I miss my scene. I miss my club. But then again in the same since... Its so exciting to be able to start completely over. Not completely over. Just a blank new page to fill. Fill me? :) Still in Memphricah. With Brandon. Brandon, Brandon, Brandon. Jeez-Louise. Ya know... its gone suck when I gotta get on that jet plane. And watch him drive away. But again... Just like my club that i was so use to, that I loved so much... A new page. :( A page that he will be in...just in a different way. Wait for me, to move out west... i hope you know your my favorite thing, about the west coast... I hope you stay, I hope you wait... couting down tha' dayz... till California comes... California comes... //\\//\\d~ (Comment on this)
Friday, September 30th, 2005
3:40 pm	YOOOO! A hot minute has passed. Well, Lets see... I should have started off last entree with someone that has left your life... there is a reason why they are gone. And it should stay that way. Cuz obviously astrology and just life in general doesnt want your paths to cross. Make your on assumptions about these past statements. BUT, remember, Assuming makes an ASS out of who? YOU AND ME. :) anyway...moving on... to another HOTTER topic... hahaha... My plans were to be transfering to MIAMI yall. BUT it looks like my hustler hollywood wind current is taking me somewhere else. My plans have always been to move to LA, just since the fucking storm, I was going to have to be shipped to Miami. I have thought that out. And I think that would be STUPID. Right now I have alot of money. Alot of money I have prayed for, for a long time. Money to get me where I want to be. And Miami is not it. O.C. and LA. Its gonna be a toss up between both. I dunno yet. But I do know that I didnt lose anything in that dreadful storm. I got to go back to New Orleans. And I got to see my past life... and what an entree that is. NeXt... in my SuReAL wOrLd ~//\\//\\doubt (Comment on this)
Monday, September 5th, 2005
3:57 am	Jay's back! I guess people that impact your life... never really go away. I recieved a text message after the massave devisation back home. in new orleans and hattiesburg. but jayson lost his house and his mother lost her house. a super sad story. but he contacted me. and that sparked our friendship fire to ignite again. and yall to be honest im so glad. only that dork can make me laugh the way he can. and only my red neck ass can make him laugh the way i can. I think he might be next on my katrina tour 2005. (florida) i'm not sure. It might be Kaite is Nebraska! so ill be back with this story and many more.... peaceout //\\//\\doubt (Comment on this)
3:52 am	Katrina Tour 2005::: Dates soon to be released! Cuz I have no place! I'm in Memphis right now with Brandon. Having a great time. People are so awesome here. I'm so tired i cant even think. Ive been crying at every generious thing offered to me. its so hard. im a bundle of nerves right now. I do know that i am being transferd to Hustler Hollywood in Miami in mid nov. so that is really cool. that will be after hurricane season ends... and the next year when i begins again ill be transferd to L.A.! i have to go to sleep now. Yall my heart has been crushed. Speaking of hearts being crushed... guess who is back?!? the hot topic guy... //\\//\\~ (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 1st, 2005
3:49 am	oh my god. its gone. My life in new orleans is gone. my job is gone. my club is gone. my house is gone. :( this is my journal series. this makes number 4. but 1-3... gone. i cant even think str8. i dont have anything. everything is gone. oh my god. why didnt i pack more than 2 bags! why???? //\\//\\~ (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 30th, 2005
2:45 am	Katrina is on her way. and now Shes a 5. I dont know what to say. My whole world has stopped. And now im in evacuation mode. I have to bags. That should be good. Mississppi is supposed to be getting it bad. Lol. And if that isnt where I'm headed. But for real, Id rather be there than a city below sea level, and a level system that wont hold! It can hold up to a catagory 3. NOT 5. So, I'm gettin out. But I cant take my car! It wont allow me to! She has to get worked on! So I am riding in to hattiesburg witha friend. //\\//\\~ (Comment on this)
1:45 am	A MONSTER IS COMMING! Dude... Trinity doesnt want me! Shes married! And I'm gay! BUT we both thought that we wanted each other? does that make since? anyway back to the topic at hand... K. A. T. R. I. N. A. oh my god. Dude, She turned! She's on her way to the coast of Ms. And new orleans! I've never seen somthing like this. 4 projections showed the hurricane hitting florida! how can this happen? this is so not fair! //\\//\\~ (Comment on this)
Monday, August 29th, 2005
3:38 am	Trinity... The PORNSTAR WANTS ME!!! Oh my God! This was the most awesome night ever at work!!!! 2 porn stars came in... and 106.7 the end came in and broadcasted live! Dude... i had the best night at work. it was so so so so cool. Everyone had so much fun. And the best part about it... it was work? how is that? lol. And it ended with me and the pornstar in her hotel room. ....???? And there is a monster in the sea. And its getting bigger. Her name is Katrina. She looks like she is goin for Florida tho. peaceout //\\//\\doubt (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 17th, 2005
1:12 am	Bah Dah Dah Dah.... I'm lovin it! = ) Life is so good right now. I'm so happy. Hustler is one of the best things that has come along in my life. everything happens for a reason. And thand god for huster. IT really picked me up when i was done. lol. and not the job. the people that i met. Ivy, Kenny, Jenn, Glad, Elric, Antoine. Shit i gotta stop there is no way i can name all of em. Of cource Ann,& Dan. Its just so good! peaceout //\\//\\doubt (Comment on this)
Friday, August 5th, 2005
2:15 am	Uh-Oh! Who's bad? Me Bitch! Yo, ho ho! Guess what! Looks like I'm gonna move up to M.I.T. Soon! yay! I'm sooo excited. That is one step closer to my W.C.P.L.A.N.! (West coast plan!)DUDE IM SO HAPPY! ITS GONNA BE GREAT! And I have just been sittn on my egg for so long for MTV. MTV, please find me! Yall ive been trying to get in contact with the people for so long. But I'm not givin up. I'm in new orleans because of MTV, and I owe it all to em'. But I gotta story to tell. So wont you listen? peace out //\\//\\doubt (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 14th, 2005
3:19 am	Okay, So I'm a lil pissed... So, Hustler Hollywood is fucking awesome! I love it so much! I cant even describe how it makes me feel just to go to work. I guess its because of the divercity there. I mean, at Oz it was so typical. I mean... get the f*ck off me! What makes you think that your nasty hairy daddy self can sip on my milkshake? huh? lol. come on. that is okay. its when i say, ummm no thanx. and they still keep on keepn on? that gets hella old. Or when people at the door at oz are just so fuckin happy to see me they have to (in the middle of sat. night on bourbon st.) pick me up from my post and swing me around lil ragady andy. Jesus Christ. Thank you for the jesture, but no i have to go throw up because the complete 5 360 degree spins did not settle well with my jager shot i just did 30 mins. b4. c'mon people! work with me! But anyway... im not gonna beat a dead cow... What my purnt was... I'm a lil pissed! So, I start this awesome job right! And after starting it... I know a couple people had a crush on me. WEHELL... dirty bitches. dirty dirty bird. the M.I.T. at hustler went from a friend to a infected hair on an elephants butt real quick. Yeah so he had a crush on me... and then since he couldnt have me... went after my **LIL** crush. But here is the catch... I was totally denied. lol. no i wasnt. He just interfeard... and that confused my crush. to where he was choosing who he wanted. bitch please. I let the cock blockn' m.i.t. he could have him! kunt. lol. I'm drunk right now... can ya tell? ::breaths fresh air::: ahhh! I'm over it now. Thanx live journal! your the best! peaceout //\\//\\doubt (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 5th, 2005
3:18 am	I'm a Hustlah Baybay! Wow! Yall I finally can type on live journal. Jeez. I've been so buisy. But ya know what? Working on Bourbon St... not the end of Bourbon St. Where Oz is... but the FIRST of Bourbon St. Right when you turn off of Canal. I love my job so much. Hustler Hollywood. The store is so beautiful. And all the people are so awesome. So sweet. So unique. So vibrant. :) I might fit in well! I do know that I have a goal in mind all ready. Ive learned in life that goals are the rest areas in life on that hot smelly car ride... and dreams is your destination. When it finally comes. When you finally see the Epcot center at Disney world. So goals are important to make, just so you dont pee your pants... ya heard me? Well I have this plan ya see. To Move to L.A. And be transferd from New Orleans to L.A. Sunset Blvd. baby. Wow... only time will tell. peace out! //\\//\\doubt (Comment on this)